Beni

last quarter in Beni’s shoes:

> doxxed
> got in a feud with someone disrespectful
> went omega viral
> showed that his employers were doing wonky stuff with their volume
> got them, a billion dollar company, investigated by the CFTC
>got name dropped in the WSJ
> out of it got to speak with my childhood role models and Forbes list billionaires
> got headhunters offering jobs in top quant funds
> (would’ve been great if they had offered those BEFORE I transitioned to AI)
> broke the news that a hacker was selling Mistral’s data on the darkweb
>my literal blood sample was used to create an anti-aging drug due to an extremely rare bleeding disorder I have that apparently has for side effect to increase life expectancy
> told the internet it could use my old firm as a reference for job application
> got 35k likes and 20k bookmarks
> broke top 100 most liked tweet of the day
> all while working well above 80h week

people are gonna be shocked when they find out that my team and I made a major breakthrough in LLM architecture

I’ll get it independently audited by the big benchmarking firms just to make sure that people don’t think I am lying lol

Lol if only you knew what’s coming

My entire timeline summarized:

“Hey so me and me 3 shares of $NVDA are unanimously against the removal of Jensen Huang as CEO of the NVIDIA Corporation”

worth it though

+22k followers (130%) and 45M impressions

You cannot fathom the atrocities I’d commit if I pull up to a party and instead of a beer they hand me this bullshit

This is a serious tweet for once

Got a ton of questions about how I started the firm so young or what I’d recommend you do etc etc

I figured that after all these years I’d finally address it head on with some transparency

The path that got me where I am today is irreproducible because am a walking anomaly

“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.”
– Albert Camus

If life fuck you up badly enough positives emerge

Was born with bleeding disorders and got hospitalized for most of my childhood

Thing is when people imagine what it’s like to grow up in a hospital, they tend to think only of the hardships that directly affect the child

But that’s barely 5% of it

Trust me, I’d know lol

No

What actually ends up breaking you is what happens to those around you

Watching your only friends, the ones you made because the hospital was your entire world, die right in front of you, again, and again, while you keep on living and wonder why you keep getting second chances yet everyone arounds you doesn’t

Hearing kids scream in agony for hours at night until they end up rupturing their vocal cords

Or simply from seeing the pain that your situation causes on your loved ones, who’ve cried so much that no tears are coming out no more

But hold on before typing your pity filled comments lol

As I said above, if it’s bad enough good things come out of it

If someone is under constant pain and stress, at some point, in order to survive, his brain rewires itself as a form of coping mechanism

In my case it created complete mental apathy

I think it started little by little but at some point I just stopped feeling emotions. To this day I feel nothing, it’s neither good or bad, am just numb

But something a lot weirder happened

I think because I felt so much survival guilt and incomprehension the only way I could accept my situation was by convincing myself that I was the chosen one lol

If I kept surviving it meant that the universe had chosen me to accomplish great things, and for reasons I still don’t really understand, it developed a soldier like mentality

I stopped complaining

Like I was 10, in pain post-surgery and I’d be like stop being a bitch and tank it lol

But above all it gave me like, idk lol, indomitable grit?

I think the only purpose my brain could find in order to harness and use this was by using it to make it right

To achieve great things for my friends who were never given the chance to try, to give my mom and sister a better life so that they hadn’t gone through all of this for nothing etc etc

I know that from an outside perspective this prob doesn’t sound very healthy, and perhaps you can’t comprehend it, but it never felt that way for me, it just gave me purpose

That’s why I left my family at 11 after I got a scholarship to go to boarding school, to this day it’s still the most important decision I made in my life it kickstarted everything

It’s hard to explain

Like when I got FTX’ed almost for it all I kept working as if nothing had happened like a psychopath and I was back at it the next day

I am 25 today and a while back I got to pay off my moms debts and financially support her and my sister who otherwise would have to rely only on welfare

The only reason that happened is because of how the above shaped me to become who I am today

It’s utterly insane to say but you couldn’t craft better character traits for financial success

Imagine if setbacks had close to no impact on you, that’s how I feel

I like to think that I was born with horrific luck and to balance it out the universe rewarded me with that lol

All that to say

I can’t teach you guys shit about anything

My only tip is to find a reason bigger than yourself

When life inevitably fucks you, it’s a whole lot easier to keep going if you’re not only doing it for your own gain

I’d be flipping burgers today if I was doing it for myself and myself only and that’s a fact