thijs

i gave astra a robot, a paint brush, and a camera then asked it to paint the golden gate bridge in real life!

it figured out how to control the robot, and progressively got better throughout its attempts. the timelapse is sick

on being lost //
> no one talks about this but posting projects online is an incredible drug.

it's taken me to the highest highs of my life to days when i can't even get out of bed, completely demotivated, wondering why, in the last 2 months, i can't think of anything that seems exciting to work on or worth my time.

the three days after a project goes viral are some of the best of my life. i'm so happy and incredibly social. i've found a new lust for life. i feel like i've 'made it'.

opening twitter notifications feels like (what i assume) hitting a vape is like. i check them every 5 minutes. for a rare moment of my life, it calms me. i feel comfortable.

i've swam across an entire pool and can catch my breath for a brief moment before the next lap.

but day 4 is the start of the crash. for me, each time it's gotten worse as i raise the bar for my work.

(bad thoughts)
> how the fuck am i expected to come up with another idea that is worth millions of views or 'a sama retweet'?
> my work fundamentally changed the robotics space, and i just stopped??? i should have continued the project.
> i have to prove to all 20,000 of you that following me is worth it.
> just one more project, then maybe i'll 'make it' and people will care about me.

i'm scared to work on anything that has no chance of being cool enough. so i do nothing. i lay in bed trying to force myself to have an idea (it never comes).

in bed, i look at my past with rose colored lenses.

> while at openai, i kept hitting 'banger after banger'. maybe leaving was the wrong decision. (of course, there were many moments i was demotivated then, too)

my happiness seems to be very purpose driven.

finding purpose is weird. working for someone (broadly) gives you someone else's purpose. school gives you a false sense of purpose. your own work might make you feel lost most of the time, but give you purpose when you have ideas or it goes well.

all of the above are totally valid ways to derive purpose. but maybe happiness shouldn't be purpose driven.

the best feelings in the world are
> having an idea so great that you can't stop working on it
> the moment you've gotten to know someone new truly deeply. maybe while looking up at the stars.
> someone telling you how much something you did meant to them
> staying up late with friends or family doing something incredible

two months with no good ideas is not a long time. but it feels like forever when the world moves so fast.

it's a cruel joke that the best ideas will come to you when you don't expect them. it's cruel that you will never find a good idea while trying to find one.

it's cruel that one small idea can throw a wrench in your entire life, and for three days, give you a taste of pure joy, only to place you right back where you were. of course we chase that feeling.

the reality is that there is no 'making it'. even the best of the best of people are anxious and worried and always looking for what's next.

every time i've been lucky enough to meet one of my idols, i've asked a simple question: "with all the incredible things you've done, are you satisfied?" i've never once heard yes.

the layman wishes he was rich and famous. the rich man wishes he was famous. and the famous man wishes he had found a way to become rich.

when was the last time you looked up at the stars? when was the last time you got to know someone new truly deeply?

great ideas will come to you. being lost is part of the journey.

while on a journey to find purpose, you might have lost sight of what provided it to you in the first place.

after being stuck and lost for the last two months, i've found something small that i'm excited about.

its an incredible feeling. i can't wait to get out of bed in the morning. i keep delaying my bedtime.

i haven't done anything but work on this project the last few days!!

here's the story behind how this photo happened!

on @cerebras Big Chip Club with @MilksandMatcha

i've been playing around with this model on some robotics projects today. my initial read so far is that it's really good!

while other models felt like an llm trying to do robotics, this one feels more like a robotics model to me.

i think the clip of the robot drawing where the other arm comes in to help stabilize summarizes why. it's learned a ton of small tricks which make it seem more robotics-native.