Autumn Christian

We did it.

It becomes a lot easier to make meals at home when you realize you're basically saving yourself $30 every time you do.

I wrote about shoplifting, but this also applies to cheating. Most of the people defending cheating have no real reason to do so except to justify their own desires. They live in a kaleidoscope of constructed values. Once the desire change, they just shake the kaleidoscopic and their entire value system reorients itself around the present whim. That's it. Any constructed argument is made post-hoc. They already decided they wanted to do it and had to come up with some half-assed justification to give themselves permission.

In other words: They've essentially got a little ugly orange haired monkey with their fist wrapped around their spinal cord, making them jerk around and use their advanced intelligence to come up with more and more sophisticated arguments, going so far as to write entire books and speak to sold out symposiums, as to why it's okay to wrench a banana out of someone's hands.

Every once in a while you meet someone who seems more Alive than everyone else. It's like everyone else is pretending to exist, but they're actually consciousness manifest - they're dynamic, both funny and tragic, passionate, aware. They've got eyes that actually look at things instead of merely passing them over. It's like coming into contact with the kind of person reality was actually made for.

I'm feeling burnt out and empty and out of ideas, which is a rare state for me, but I've been horribly sick for nearly a week and haven't even had the mental fortitude to do anything but scroll TikTok videos and read erotica. No long walks, no gym, no solitary drives, no substantial reading—and now I'm over here like a dried-up sponge that's been wrung out so many times there's no water left.

So if you have any recommendations for books, movies, music or games that help you fill yourself up and ignite your creativity, please comment what they are. I need to take a few days to just recharge.